(The post below was written on June 13, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) It’s hard to believe that it’s been 10 weeks today since my mom passed. I say that every week, but it still doesn’t seem possible. This is the first Saturday since she died that I woke up and didn’t … Continue reading It’s Time to Start Living Again
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I’m Allowing Myself to Feel Joy Again
(The post below was written on May 31, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) Yesterday marked 8 weeks since my mom passed. I received the call from my dad at 7:01am that day and so, it has been my tradition to sit and stare at my phone at 7:01am every Saturday to honor … Continue reading I’m Allowing Myself to Feel Joy Again
I Lost Myself to My Mom’s Alzheimer’s
(The post below was written on May 28, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) “I feel like I’m not myself right now. I don’t even know what that is. I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.” I said these words to my husband this morning. And I meant them. … Continue reading I Lost Myself to My Mom’s Alzheimer’s
She’s Never Coming Back to Get Her Shoes, But I Still Can’t Let Them Go
(The post below was written on May 23, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) Yesterday I was at my parents’ house helping my dad out with a few things. I went into the master bedroom to get something and I saw these shoes sitting on the floor in the corner of the room. … Continue reading She’s Never Coming Back to Get Her Shoes, But I Still Can’t Let Them Go
I’m Not Moving On, But I’m Moving Forward
(The post below was written on May 21, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) This Saturday will mark seven weeks since my mom passed. It is still so hard to believe. Life is weird, but death is weirder. I get it. I know what it means. I understand. But it is still so … Continue reading I’m Not Moving On, But I’m Moving Forward
I Felt Closer to My Mom When She No Longer Knew Who I Was
(The post below was written on May 19, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) One thing I see over and over again on social media, especially in support groups, is how devastating it is when your loved one doesn’t know who you are anymore. I vividly remember the first time my mom looked … Continue reading I Felt Closer to My Mom When She No Longer Knew Who I Was
Isn’t Life Always Uncertain?
(The post below was written on May 15, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) On this day ten years ago, my mom was not only alive, but we didn’t even know she had Alzheimer’s yet. My husband and I were not even engaged yet, let alone married. We didn’t even own a house … Continue reading Isn’t Life Always Uncertain?
It’s Not About the Flowers When Your Mom Dies
(The post below was written on May 13, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) Two days ago, I finally threw away the flowers and put away the cards I received when my mom died almost six weeks ago. I may not have cried on Mother’s Day, but I sobbed throwing away those flowers … Continue reading It’s Not About the Flowers When Your Mom Dies
Is My Mom’s Death the Hard Reset I’ve Been Looking For?
(The post below was written on May 7, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) Several months ago I told my husband that I felt like I needed a hard reset. My life had been on hold for so many years and although I had the desire to start living again, I didn’t even … Continue reading Is My Mom’s Death the Hard Reset I’ve Been Looking For?
You Grieve So Hard Because You Love So Hard
(The post below was written on April 18, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) I’m still here. I’m still struggling. I cannot believe it’s already been two weeks since my mom passed away. I planned on waking up so I could stare at my phone at 7:01 this morning to honor the moment … Continue reading You Grieve So Hard Because You Love So Hard
