I felt so guilty living my life while my mom was suffering from Alzheimer’s and my dad was overwhelmed with her care that I just simply stopped living my life. I still feel guilty that I didn’t have to take care of her from the minute I woke up until the minute I went to … Continue reading Punishing Yourself for Your Loved One’s Suffering Won’t Do Anyone Any Good
Tag: finding myself
It’s Okay to Go Slow and Do What Feels Familiar
I set out to go for a short run in my neighborhood this morning. The weather was pretty gloomy, as it has been for the last few days, but I opted to run outside because I knew I needed it. This year has been heavy for everyone for many reasons, but for me it has … Continue reading It’s Okay to Go Slow and Do What Feels Familiar
You Can’t Wait to Live in the After. You Have to Live in the Now.
It has been 4 months today since my mom died. I say this all the time, but it still doesn’t seem real. It feels like it was both yesterday and a lifetime ago. In some ways, it was a lifetime ago. A different life back then, a different me. I still feel so lost. I … Continue reading You Can’t Wait to Live in the After. You Have to Live in the Now.
I Lost Myself to My Mom’s Alzheimer’s
(The post below was written on May 28, 2020. My mom passed on April 4, 2020.) “I feel like I’m not myself right now. I don’t even know what that is. I feel like I don’t even know who I am anymore.” I said these words to my husband this morning. And I meant them. … Continue reading I Lost Myself to My Mom’s Alzheimer’s