Limbo Written by Sandy Patton and shared with permission Standing in her doorway, I feel the familiar angst. I clear my throat, swallowing hard against the flood of tears that, on most days, threatens to escape my eyes, now awash in sadness, exhaustion, hopelessness. I’ve tried hard to brighten Mom’s small room with … Continue reading “Limbo” by Sandy Patton
Tag: Alzheimer’s daughter
Interview with Dr. Regina Koepp of the Caring for Aging Parents Show
I had the honor and privilege of being interviewed by Dr. Regina Koepp yesterday for the Caring for Aging Parents Show. In the interview, we talk about the road to my mom’s diagnosis, my struggle as a 25-year-old to accept her diagnosis, the importance of sharing your story, what I’ve learned over the last ten … Continue reading Interview with Dr. Regina Koepp of the Caring for Aging Parents Show
Here’s to All the Heavy Hearts This Holiday Season
Here’s to all the heavy hearts this holiday season. The hearts that are breaking and bleeding. The hearts that are grieving the loss of the living or the deceased. The hearts that not only have an empty seat at the table, but an empty space within them, one that can never be filled. Here’s to … Continue reading Here’s to All the Heavy Hearts This Holiday Season
To Both Love and Grieve Means to Live a Full Life
I’ve been thinking a lot about death lately. Death and grief and the impending doom of losing my mom. (Yeah, I know. I’m super fun these days.) I’ve also been thinking a lot about how much my mom’s Alzheimer’s has affected me; how much it has changed me. I often ask myself why my mom’s … Continue reading To Both Love and Grieve Means to Live a Full Life
And Yet, I Am Grateful
I will never know what it’s like to see my mom’s car pull up to my house. I will never know what it’s like to group text with my mom and my sister. My mom will never buy me another Christmas present or birthday card. She will never call me on my birthday to sing … Continue reading And Yet, I Am Grateful
To the Girl Whose Parent Was Just Diagnosed with Alzheimer’s
Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. I bet you didn’t even realize you were holding your breath. Inhale. Exhale. Inhale. Exhale. I know in this moment it doesn’t feel like it, but you are going to be okay. You are going to figure this out. Be still and feel your own heart beating. Listen to the sound … Continue reading To the Girl Whose Parent Was Just Diagnosed with Alzheimer’s
My Mom’s Alzheimer’s Is About Her, Not Me
For a long time, I used to think about my mom’s Alzheimer’s mostly in terms of how it affected me. How sad it was that she was diagnosed so young, when I was only 25 years old. How sad it was for me to lose my mom this way. How sad it was that there … Continue reading My Mom’s Alzheimer’s Is About Her, Not Me
We Break, But We Always Rebuild Ourselves
A few weeks ago, my husband and I went to John’s Pass for the afternoon. It’s a fishing village with a boardwalk and tons of shops and restaurants. We went into a little dog boutique and I found this adorable mug. I painstakingly selected the most perfect mug without any nicks or cracks on it … Continue reading We Break, But We Always Rebuild Ourselves
You Can Do Hard Things Out of Love
My dad had an appointment with a funeral home director a couple of weeks ago. I remember him mentioning something to me, but I didn’t know he had made an appointment or when it was. At the time, I didn’t even think to tell him to wait for me to come home so I could … Continue reading You Can Do Hard Things Out of Love
Someday You’re Going to Miss What Seems Hard Today
You’re going to miss this someday. Whatever you’re going through right now. Whatever your biggest challenge is. The thing that drives you absolutely crazy and frustrates you to your core. You’re going to miss it someday. It seems like just yesterday I was driving my mom to the hairdresser or out to go shopping. She … Continue reading Someday You’re Going to Miss What Seems Hard Today
