Do you ever just get sick of your own shit?
Like there’s something you want to do or something you know you should be doing, but you just keep coming up with excuses not to do it?
And then one day you realize it’s been six months and you still haven’t done that thing you keep saying you want to do?
Last spring, I started going to this hot yoga studio after overthinking it for way too long. I went to several classes before I bought a 30 class card. I actually posted about it back then and how proud I was of myself for finally going.
Then, I skipped two classes in a row because I wasn’t feeling well. Two classes turned into two weeks of classes, which then turned into two months, and the next thing I knew it was November and I hadn’t been to a class since May.
Throughout that entire time, I kept talking about going back. I kept saying how much I wanted to go. I kept telling myself that I better use the 20-something classes left on my class card before it expired in April.
By the time November rolled around, I had built it up so much in my head that I was overthinking it all over again like I had been back in the beginning of 2022. And suddenly, going back to the hot yoga studio had become this impossible feat.
Toward the end of November, I finally got sick of my own shit.
“Lauren, you are going to be pissed if you let this class card expire without using the rest of the classes on it. That would be such a waste of money,” I told myself.
“You keep saying you want to go to this class or that class. Well if you want to go so badly, why don’t you just sign the hell up and go already?!”
I called myself on my own bullshit.
That week, I signed up for a pilates class and finally went back to the studio after making excuses for six freaking months.
Why am I telling you this?
Because today I used the last class on my class card and it doesn’t even expire for another two months.
What did I learn from this?
1. Sometimes, you have to learn the same lesson over and over again before you really learn it.
2. Celebrate even the smallest wins because they often take the most effort.
Let this be your reminder to get out of your head today and go do that thing you’ve been saying you want to do.
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